Heal

There are three of us named Jen in one of my circles of friends. The cupcake twitter ladies we call ourselves.
We self identify by our callings. I, naturally am Nurse Jen.

Baker Jen can be found here:

http://cleverlydisguisedascake.blogspot.ca/

Preacher Jen can be found here:

http://thinkingchristian.ca/site/index.php?option=com_frontpage&Itemid=1

I must also mention our heart...our honorary Jen...Liz can be found here:

http://lifewithbellymonster.blogspot.ca/


Ok, so some time ago five of the Cupcake Twitter Ladies cleared a spot in our schedules (no small task I assure you) and got together for dinner. We three named Jens sat on one side of the dinner table, randomly.

As usual we had an epic chat the five of us. We covered a lot of ground. Thankfully Sara was there to record and report, God bless her cotton socks.

http://www.theycallitgumption.com/2013/07/26/a-list-of-valuable-life-lessons-learned-from-a-girls-night-out/


As we sat around sharing and crying and pretending to eat, Liz looked up and dubbed us left to right "Heal, Bake and Pray"

I, apparently am Heal. We laughed and threw around the idea of a blog entitled "Heal, Bake and Pray" but we haven't organized it yet. So today I'm writing my piece of what would be the blog. Mostly because I can't get the danged thing out of my head and I'm hoping writing it down will do the trick.

What do I have to say about healing?

Well, it's not for the timid that's for  sure. There are in my experience two ways to go about it; you can fight and scream and rebreak the bones and cut open the scars or you can gentle into it and softly tend the wounds. Either way you have to START.

The real courage in healing is facing up to the unbalanced scarred parts. The really hard part is to look at yourself and your symptoms and admit they ARE symptoms and have them addressed.

To have the clarity and steely eyed determination to know you NEED to heal is the part where a lot of people fall down.
Not so much fall down as in fail, fall down as in fail to start.
It's soooo easy, so damned seductively easy to say "I don't have a problem, this isn't a problem,  YOU have a problem, Society has a problem, the system has a problem, the human race has a problem, every body else is an asshole...but hey...I'm fine."
It's also very easy to say "I was given this disease and I can't do anything about it. I'm helpless here, I'm a victim"

EVERYBODY has choices. Everybody. You can choose to ignore your high blood pressure as you eat your chips and kfc or you can choose to get it together and change your diet. You can choose to move from train-wreck to train-wreck emotionally or you can choose to find out, really find out how you contributed to your wreck.

It's not easy to look either of those things in the eye but it IS worth it.
It's worth it because once you do it's very hard to UNSEE it. If you can't unsee it, and you can sort out how your symptom impacts your life, fixing it is the logical next step.

You have to SEE it first, though. Really see it. Really understand how your high blood sugars will shut down your kidneys. Really see how your pervasive attitude affects those around you. Understand the impacts you have.

Because healing is not for the weak, or the cowardly, or the timid. It doesn't have to involve pain and anguish but it does have to have a place to start.